Old Boyfriends

Do you ever wonder about old lovers/boyfriends/girlfriends/partners? Is there someone in particular that you wonder about. There are several people that I periodically think, "I wonder what he's doing now?" One is Chris who was the first person I thought I was in love with. He was also the first person I had sex with and at one point he was one of my very best friends. If you had told me my sophomore year of college that there would be time when I wouldn't talk to him I would have said you were crazy. But life changes and suddenly there I was 12 years later wondering about the person that I had told to never contact me again. I had joined myspace and searched for various names of family and friends. Including his. And I found a profile that I thought was probably him, right age, right zodiac sign. I sent a message, "Hey are you the guy I used to know?" I showed his profile to my sister who asked, "Do you think that picture looks like Chris?" I told her, "I could make it be him." A month and a half went by and he never logged in to his profile. (Incidentally, that's something I love about myspace, being able to see the last time someone logged on.) One night I was sitting at home and during one of the brief periods of free wi-fi access I saw that I had a new message. When I tell people this story I say that sometimes I'm a little bit psychic but I think it was just my logical mind working over-time (I'd been on earlier and responded to some messages but none of my friends were on-line) but whatever the case I just KNEW the message was from Chris and I was right--See I told you I'm psychic! I was so excited and opened it up. He confirmed it was him and that he'd also been wondering about me. We exchanged a few messages, updating eachother on our lives and that was it. And really, that was all I wanted. I just wanted to know that he was doing ok, and was happy. My husband was a little freaked out about the whole contact with my old boyfriend thing but I told him that I felt the same way about finding Chris as I did about finding my friend Jen who moved back to Sweden 10 years ago. I feel like I have a sense of closure about my relationship with Chris that I needed too. Now, if only I could find Doc online...

So, I'm Lazy

It turns out that despite having a laptop with wi-fi I am too lazy to take it anywhere and do much besides check my e-mail and log on to myspace and facebook both of which I have joined in the last four or five months. I work and then I go home and cook dinner. After we eat I just don't feel like going anywhere. However, when I am at my juvenile detention job I have a whole weekend of internet access so I should really try to do something with this or I should just take it all down and figure that I am not a blogger by nature. But I want to be, so I'll keep on working on it. Meanwhile, I have to hope that I do this often enough that I don't forget my password again!!